I have seriously tried answering this about five times and always have to walk away and come back. I apologize for the long wait for an answer. I just don’t want to come off the wrong way, especially since I personally cannot relate to you and therefore don’t want to appear judgmental.
Personally speaking I do not think there is a “reversal” or”cure” for being in any LGBT community. I believe you are who you are, and sometimes becoming that person is harder. No one just wakes up one morning and decides to be trans or gay or even straight. It’s not a mindset that you can change, or an illness that can be cured. Is this not the basis for LGBT human rights? That this is not something you can change?
Who would literally WANT to face the difficulties and tragedies that the LGBT community has faced for so long? So many people live in fear of being who they are because society views it as something disgusting, unnatural, and evil. So many men, women, and children have been teased, bullied, beaten and even killed for being who they are. No one wants to worry about that.
I do not know the specifics to your situation so it is difficult for me to answer you with accuracy. Are your difficulties with coping caused by religious beliefs? Others? The difficulties and costs of transitioning? What is your definition of normal? Normal is so broad and varies from both micro and macro societal definitions.
Also, are you identifying as transgender, or as a male? I know that some embrace being trans and use it to educate others. Some identify as trans without emphasizing on their transition. And others prefer to identify as male and acknowledge this as their only gender because they were never truly female. Maybe you just have to look at being trans from all angles and identify from one that makes you most comfortable. Your life can change by the minor difference of being openly transgender, to being stealth, or not identifying at all.
I do not mean to be discouraging. I just don’t have enough to go on to answer you properly and I am only trying to speak the truth. There just isn’t a quick fix. If you feel alone though, you can message me off anon and we can speak privately. Plus, there are many more trans, and specifically FTM, support blogs and websites if you look in the resource tab on this page.